day one
Today is day one of being unemployed and I hate it already. I feel like a degenerate and despite my best efforts to apply to as many jobs as I can with well written cover letters and call backs about the positions, I get nothing. It frustrates me to no end because unlike the last time when I was layed off, this time I have a house to my name and I have a constant fear in my mind that we're going to lose the house.
It's bad enough not having a job, but the house seems like a much bigger worry. It's enough to keep me from being able to fall asleep at night and during the day, every time I check a job site and I see nothing, my mind races around the possibility of losing the house. I hate it and it's only been one day. I hate how nobody has the courtesy to just write back "No" so you can move on. I hate walking around the house with no direction. I hate the fear, angst, frustration and depression. I just want a new job with a steady pay check that I can reasonably enjoy and be productive at.